We accept the love we think we deserve.
You know, I’m just feeling a bit sentimental at the moment. I know it will pass, but I would love someone to just talk to right now. Why don’t we become friends?
…and I’m on the outside
is my first day at Kara’s Cupcakes! I’m real excited to twerk! (:
This year is definitely going to be a great year, I can feel it!
Valentine’s day. The two times I’ve had Valentines, I went all out. First time was my freshman year in high school. I went to Build-A-Bear and got this special bear that was all white with red accents. The paws and mouth were magnets so that it could blow kisses. I also baked a small heart-shaped cake and decorated it myself. I got a cheap Valentine gram in return. At least it wasn’t completely a waste! I got something at least. The second time was the worst. I was too invested in this relationship, I wanted to go the extra mile and spend the whole morning making cupcakes. I made cupcakes that were made with white cake and chocolate chips, filled with cookies and cream ice cream. I did that because he loved cookies and cream.. I then decorated them in frosting that were his favorite colors. I felt accomplished.. We had worked opposite shifts that day so we could only meet in the middle for a few hours or so. He came over, got me nothing, then left early. It was a pretty depressing day.
This is why I hate Valentine’s day. I am sorry for trying to be romantic and thoughtful, sheesh. Today my Valentine is Mary Jane!
where I went out with my mom and upon leaving the car, she asked if she should bring her ipad. I told her to leave it there since we were going to be quick. We came back and the back window was bashed and the ipad was gone. She blamed me and went on about it all the way home because I told her to leave it in the car. We left then came back to my place to find that my room was broken into. My TV and laptop were stolen, and I was not having this day. I remembered had a friend visiting from out of town staying with me that night. He ended up coming over and I was feeling like shit. We ended the night by cuddling and somehow everything felt a pinch better.
That dream only made me realize that if that were to happen to me today, I wouldn’t have the good ending my dream did. I am lonely ): I need to get my shit together, then next step is to find me a man!
My brother took me to the raunchiest gay bar I’ve EVER been to. First of all, everyone was almost nude. Then I saw that on the TV screens, they played a porn movie and had a slide how of nude guys. We travelled to the back of the club so he could smoke and some random half naked Indian guy started making out with him and he was playing along. The guy then rubbed his crotch and the super awkwardness kicked in. I have never felt so uncomfortable in my whole life! The gay scene in SF is too much for I think.. Goes to show how I can never be a slut like he is……